Grief.
It feels like a big, hairy, beast
Has moved in with me.
It is constantly nipping at my heels
And won’t leave me alone.
I tried being patient with it.
It kept nipping.
The constant nipping made me angry.
And I raged against it.
It kept nipping.
I was busy with services and
Things that needed to be done.
Yet the beast was always there, always nipping.
And when I tried to ignore it,
It climbed on my back and held me down
Till I could do nothing.
Not even sleep, for it whispered in my ear all night.
So I lay down, with the full weight of the beast on me,
And cried.
And cried.
And cried.
Today, the beast walks beside me,
As if I have put him on a leash. He won’t leave my side.
It is as if he is my new partner, always with me.
Unpredictable, I don’t know what he will do next.
Is he to be my partner for life?
Or can he be tamed?
I can’t finish my poem.
Not yet.
May our prayers lift you up while you go through this difficult journey. You are the best and we love you! Sue Neville
The beast will eventually get smaller until one day you will notice he’s not around any more, but brace yourself for a possible return visit. He will be smaller and less painful. My heart goes out to you and your family. I know what you are going through, because I’ve been there myself.
The loss never goes away. A scent, a color, a flower and a list of other things will always stir up good and sad memories. But knowing that our loved ones are with our Lord and we will see them again in all their glory helps me get through those times. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this difficult time. God Bless you and your family.
Beautiful poem and very apt description of grief.
Thanks you kat13cat. I am so happy you enjoyed my poem and found it relatable.
I lead a grief recovery group at my church and feel very blessed to be able to accompany individuals through their own unique journey. Always looking for new inspiring material. I also write poetry.
God bless you in your ministry. And thank you for answering his call to do so. I wrote this poem just a bit over a year ago and quite honestly forgot about it until you commented. It is amazing to me to “look back.” And I wrote that I could not finish my poem. Excited now to add the next verse. Thanks for stopping by. I will post a link from my poem to your site!